My days are numbe(re)d

Don't grab
Don't clutch
Don't hope for too much
Don't breathe
Don't achieve
Or grieve without leave

Don't travel by train
Don't eat
Don't spill
Don't piss in the drain
Don't make a will

I feel numb

These lines are U2 creations.
These lines aptly describe my current mental condition.
I feel numb.
I'm tired of 'educating' myself. Or mugging my way to insanity. Or not getting marks from marksists ( pun intended ).
Politicians and pseudo-intellectuals, please stop being educators. Have mercy on us. Please. Would someone have the sanity to hand over the arduous task of reforming our education system to a few erudite professors ?
Or maybe it's not the system. It's just me; rather the demotivated, jaded haggard ( who's a born loser, by the way ) inside me. I don't know. I know I'm not making much sense. But then, you have to understand. I feel numb.

P.S. :Smoking is like Marxism. You must indulge in it in your youth, but you'd be foolish not to grow out of it. (Erratica, TOI 14/9)